From Lenny's Meditations, July 12, 2001
I was birthed forth out of you, Father, and then You caused me to become a dormant spirit, a dormant egg and then You came and impregnated me and made me alive again, and we developed together, You and I, as one new creation. And now, I don't even know what I am, what I look like. I don't even know anything about me. I have not experienced me as the new creation. This is what I need to see; this is what I need to hear; this is what I need to experience, Father. Religion tries to cause the natural man to become a "good Christian" by putting Christian clothes on him, Christian rules, Christian benefits, Christian understanding, and we thought that it was our spirit that we should bring forth and mature into something holy. We were wrong, because just like in a marriage, when two people create a new being through intercourse and the sperm enters into the egg of the woman, that new creation, that new form that takes place is not of the woman and it is not of the man. It is a separate entity in and of itself that is developed, caused by the woman's egg and the man's sperm uniting, but when it comes forth, it is a separate individual and this is exactly the same thing with us. We are a new creation, part our spiritual self as egg and part God's Spirit as the sperm, and the two of us have been developing together into a totally new creation, not just my spirit, not just the Spirit of God, but the two of us as one new creation.
The two have become one, and I realize that I know nothing about myself as a new creation. It is an US God and I as one being. It is the God-man that has been developing and I know nothing about it, and now I am crying out to God to show me. Let me see what I am, what we are; let me hear what we are; let me experience what we are together. Jesus was the first of many brethren (Rom. 8:29), and these other brethren I'm talking about, I'm not talking about a physical Jesus, but a Jesus after the resurrection. This is what we are and we don't see it. God has not allowed us to come into the experience of it yet. What God has revealed to me so far is that it seems like what we thought was the manifestation of the sons of God was our flesh walking around and doing things for God. It is much, much greater than that. It is a place where we walk in the glory of God, total righteousness, total peace, total light, total life, total love, total mercy, total kindness.
Our human imagination cannot grasp any of this. It all comes as a revelation directly from God and overpowers our own imagination, and the Bible clearly tells us about it. In first John, 4th Chapter, and 17th verse, at the end of the verse it says, "As Jesus is, so are we in this world." This is not as He was as a physical being, but as He IS, right now, so are we in this world. Can you imagine that? We are in a totally different dimension spiritually than we have ever thought before. In the Third Chapter of first John, it says, "He that is born of God does not sin" (1John 3:9), and that is so clear to me now. I have never seen it this clearly before, and it has nothing to do with what we have accomplished. It is all God. The zeal of the Lord has accomplished it (2 Kings 19:31; Isa. 9:7; Isa. 37:32). Seeing this is total righteousness, peace, and joy in the Holy Ghost. My whole being cries out, "Father, let me experience this now!" In this place, there is no hindrance whatsoever; nothing can hinder us. We are truly sons of God. I see us just like Jesus after His resurrection.
Up to now, most people have had to die to walk into this, to become this, but I feel that now is the time when some of us are going to be alive and step right into it, and benefit the whole world in this place. God has put me in trances time and time again, being in Tibet, speaking to tens of thousands, being in Russian jails, praying for people where hundreds of men were healed of TB, and a revival in Russia that included over three hundred thousand people, and so on. These are just the foreknowledge that God has revealed to me, I think, of what is going to happen when we totally see what we really are, and what we are able to do as sons of God. We are so close to this. The other night, God almost allowed me to step into it completely. The best part is that it has nothing, nothing, nothing to do with our natural abilities at all. What happened to Mary is exactly what happened to us. The Holy Spirit has overshadowed us, just like He did Mary, and the power of the Most High has impregnated us, and that which has come forth is a son of God. Not THE Son of God, but A son of God, a brother of THE Son of God. God proclaimed that Jesus was the first of many brethren and now we know and see that we are His brothers.
I see clearly that Jesus had to come in the flesh to conquer the flesh by dying for us, and as soon as He had conquered the flesh, He was glorified and He was able to come back and recreate, reignite our spirits, to impregnate our spirits, to make them alive again. Our spirits were killed through the flesh and they lay dormant like a seed, until He came back and conquered the flesh so that He could reinitiate the spirit, and cause it to be born again. The spirit of man lay dormant for thousands of years after the flesh had killed it, just like a seed, waiting to be planted so it can be germinated in the ground through the dampness of the soil and the heat of the sun. On the mount of transfiguration, Jesus was able to enter into this new creation that we are talking about that we are, and it also showed that Elijah and Moses had already entered into this new creation. We really don't have to die any more to enter into this place, for it is right now! We are in it. We just don't see it or hear it or experience it. I'm asking God to bring us into this new thing. Let us see it, Father; let us hear it Father; let us experience it, Father. It is definitely here right now.
Jan and Lenny Antonsson
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