Hearing from God

Jan Antonsson


The Glory Road Blog, A Kingdom Highway

October 23, 2015

Neosho, MO

“But he answered, “It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God (Matt. 4:4, RSV).

My readers have provided excellent starting points for the writings over the years, and so it is today.  My thanks to a new friend I’ll call Walter (not his real name), for his comments and question cited below.

“As you have time, could you expand for me the thought you expressed in your last post about asking a question then accepting the next thought as His answer? If you have a couple of specific examples I’d appreciate that as well.  I’ve been thinking on what you said and have found nothing that rules against it and it makes a two-way dialog very simple. I like it and would like more about your experience with it.”  End Quote.

Dear Walter, I’ve asked the Lord to help me with this, to share with you what may be helpful to you.  It was around 1978, I think, when I originally told the Lord I was going to ask Him about everything I had questions about and then accept the first thing which came to me as from Him.  That’s a long time ago, and I can’t remember specific questions, though I’m sure they had to do with daily living, what I felt was my inadequacy as a single parent, plus my often stressful career as a Real Estate Salesman, and trainer for new agents.

Dialoguing with our Father isn’t like inserting an ATM card into the machine and pulling out cash.  It’s more of a journey of discovery, both of our true self (Christ in us), and God’s true nature: unconditional love.  This leads to tremendous personal growth.  He communicates with each of us in ways we can individually hear and understand.  I’m a word person, so many of His answers for my life came in words, some in impressions, and others in word pictures (vision is too ostentatious a word for me to use).   I’ll share a few of the major milestones with you.

Two points before we begin:   1) What I get from the Lord is not equal in authority to scripture.  2) It is primarily for me, not divine authority for anyone else.

One of my problems was and still is on occasion, my feelings of personal inadequacy, most of which originated in childhood along with the dynamics of being brought to Christ in a Fundamentalist type church, in which we sinful humans were constantly on the treadmill of works because of our sins.  I NEVER heard a sermon on the Love of God when I was a child, so I grew up terrified of Him.  That does not lead to warm and cuddly feelings, or wanting to sit on His knee, but only the need to search the scriptures daily to see how I could be better.

We all know how that turned out.  Being Baptized in the Holy Spirit in about 1969 or ’70 went a long way to reverse how I felt about myself.  This is not about me, of course, but about Him, who loved us and “called our name” from the cross, ushering us into the Kingdom of Heaven on earth.

Along about 1980, I was running one day, the time when God often broke through the clutter of my busy mind and spoke to me in words.  He said plainly, “I’m sending you a husband, one you will flow together with in love, mercy, and kindness, leading others into the kingdom.”  

But God, I protested, I don’t want a husband.  I’ve had it with men.  Let me be single like the Apostle Paul.  His terse reply?  “I didn’t call you to be an Apostle.”

This statement was like a huge boulder in my mind, because by this point, after a dreadful first marriage, I wanted no part of another husband.  My main failing in those days, and sometimes still today, was I often thought I probably made it up.

That was it, I decided.  I made it up.  In those days, our church group held home meetings and shortly thereafter, I attended one in which they had what they called “a blessing seat.”  They would have a person sit in a chair in the middle of the room, and others would gather round, lay hands on him or her, and pray until God spoke.  That struck me as utterly ridiculous and a total waste of time, so I took refuge in the kitchen and decided to sneak out the back and go home.

The deacon who was leading the group called from the living room, “Jan, get in here.  You haven’t sat in the chair.”  I told him I had to leave, but he would have none of it.  So, reluctantly, I went in and sat in the chair.  They were praying over me in tongues, and then the deacon began to prophesy in English, “The Lord is sending you a husband and you will flow together with him in love, mercy, and kindness.”  That knocked me off my rocker pretty quickly, but I could no longer conclude that I had made it up.

There’s a danger in hearing the Lord’s prophecy, and that danger is that it is our human tendency to go out and try to make it happen.  Remember Abraham and Sarah plotting to get an heir through Hagar, her maid?  Isaac’s descendants to this very day have rued the day that decision was made.  Ishmael and his descendants have made war on Isaac’s descendants down through the centuries with no end in sight.

I created an Ishmael from whom I caught Hepatitis A.  Other of my friends were exposed as well.  God healed me of that, and there were no ill effects, except much embarrassment on my part.  It was a great lesson learned, unforgettable still today.

Lenny often told me, “God told me to do this, and now I wait until He tells me when.”  God is the subject of all His own prophecies, which is why Jesus said He did nothing except what He saw the Father doing and said nothing other than what He heard the Father saying. (John 5:19; 12:49).

This sounds funny, but God often speaks to me in the middle of the night when I get up to go to the bathroom.  One night in about 1996, He said to me as I sat on the potty, “You will write, write, write and your words will flow out over the mountains, the valleys and the seas.”  I told Lenny about it the next morning and he and I both thought Internet, which was just beginning to be available, but we knew we’d have to wait until God showed us what and when.

That same summer, I met Gary Sigler through John Gavazzoni’s inviting us to a meeting in the North San Fernando Valley.  Gary and I were the only ones in the room who were on the Internet, and that began a fruitful friendship.  I began sending him my writings, one of which was “Primrose Path to Gehenna.”

Someone had shared with me the book, The Origin and History of the doctrine of Eternal Punishment by Thomas Thayer.  I was extremely excited to read his findings about God’s salvation of everyone.  Soon after finishing it, I began to feel pressured to write about this well hidden truth shared with me first by Harry Fox in about 1969.  I felt the Holy Spirit hovering over me like a blanket, a constant weight from which there was no release.  I didn’t want to write about this, because up to this time, I had not shared this gem with any of my family.  I had Lenny and John Gavazzoni and Harry Fox to discuss it with, but no one else.

Realizing that the Holy Spirit would never let up until I obeyed, I sat down to write, and wrote as fast as my fingers could fly over the keyboard, for about 2 hours as I recall.  The result was the 17 page paper known as “Primrose Path.”  The Spirit bade me send it to all my cousins, which filled me with terror, but I lived over it.  I had also sent it to Gary Sigler, prompting him to call me and ask if he could build us a website.  He was the first webmeister of The Glory Road website and we owe him a lot for his faithful help.  The rest, as they say, is history.

God closed us down in California and moved us here to Neosho where Lenny’s assignment was to be a witness of the light, glory, and unconditional love of Almighty God to a group of Baptist men.  Mother lived in the farm house where I now live and Lenny and I lived in a 5th wheel parked down by the barn.  It was a strange journey, but a glorious one as we lived on the word of the Lord to us and His provision for us, by which He met every need we had, and happily, still does.

None of the above was for us or about us, but for Him and about His wondrous, incalculable love, mercy and grace.  We were His emissaries.  Now, Lenny is still an emissary from the other side, and I’m still writing what I get in Spirit, including this answer to your questions, which I hope you will permit me to quote.

One scripture stuck with me from my childhood Bible study, and is with me still:   “But without faith it is impossible to please Him. For he that cometh to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him (Heb. 11:6, KJV).  He has always rewarded those who seek Him.  It’s a promise we can take to the bank.  Here’s Jonathan Mitchell’s translation:  Now apart from faith, trust or confidence, [one is] powerless (or: unable) to please [God] well. It is necessary and binding for the person habitually approaching God to believe (to be convinced and trust) that He is (or: that He exists), and that He habitually comes to be (or: becomes) the One who pays back wages (or: gives away rewards) to, in and for those folks repeatedly (or: constantly) seeking Him out (or: seeking from out of Him)”  (Heb. 11:6, Jonathan Mitchell)

And the best news about this promise is that the faith it takes to please Him, is HIS faith planted in our hearts so we can receive His words as the inestimable gift they are.  As Harry Fox says,  “You can’t lose for winning.”   And we join our voices with those found in Rev. 19:6, “And I heard as it were the voice of a great multitude, and as the voice of many waters, and as the voice of mighty thunderings, saying, Alleluia: for the Lord God omnipotent reigneth.”  Amen and amen.  Jan Antonsson

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